Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Yes, i just came back home after a short day in sch. So now i am gonna try and output what my brain had input for the whole night. I might have watch too much drama show(romance type), and i was moved by some parts. So i myself, thought that i should also show what had happen in my life that moved my heart greatly. 1st i could ever think of was during the Chalet, where the 1st tears dropped for me. Never in my life, has anyone shed tears for me, not because of hurts, but shed tears because she loved me. When i heard that she cried because of me, my heart was moved by her, it makes me want to love her even more. But i didn't realise something. The 2nd time i was touched was also because she cried again. If memory serve me right, it was because she was touched by what i did. She told me that. At that point of time, i was touched too, cause she was worried about me too. And what did i not realise was. How she showed her love for me. Not by words, but her actions. People don't shed tears for sad things only. This mistake i made, cause so much unhappiness and ended with hurts. On my birthday, she was willing to skip school just to accompany the whole day, she even reject her friends advices about skipping school, but i know she feels bad about it. I don't think i have done anything worth to mention for her. But done things that hurt her so much. i rmb that even when we quarreled, she still sticks to me but just afraid to talk to me. She don't like us to quarrel and most funny thing is that it happen always on the Tuesday. She is a sweet looking girl who loved me even when i had bad tempers and is an average looking person, i ain't good at anything but she never looked down on me before. Although now, we looks like complete strangers, i will still think of her out of the sudden. Just like last night.
Of cause, i had though of other things too, like i have this very special friend. I vowed to place her 2nd of everything even though we don't know each other well. Yes, we only met each other twice and most of our conversation is either on msn or msg. Weird uh, well, i don't know why too. But i know that i can trust her, even if she don't trust me. She, of all my life, is a friend that was willing to msg with me no matter what. She don't ignore me and she gives advices sometime. There was a point of time i liked her, now? i don't know what kind of like do i have for her. My ex will never leave my mind, i can't forget her like others. And yes, this friend of mine, although we never went out before, at least don't bomb me. Well, maybe she can't bomb me. Anyway. i still place her important to me. I will give my best to help her whenever she needs. But there is this girl that still stay first. The girl that touched my life. And i still have thoughts of hoping she would come back to me.
