Tuesday, March 2, 2010
It's the 2nd march today. Ages since i ever posted anything, I was just trying get my life back, back to where i started. Suppose to be working at 11pm, yet i choose to miss the work. Irresponsible suits me well. I wasn't being responsible in many ways. Work, friends and relationship. I left my friend to work alone today. What a great person i am? Also, i know i am not liked by many but there are few that liked me for who i am. I don't know if i should be someone whom i am not, or whom i want to be. People asked questions yet answer sometime just ain't what we want to hear. This is life, and we are suppose to be responsible to our life. We don't give our life to people and let them control, we have the full control of how we want our life to be. As for relationship, i don't know if you would come across this post. I wanna say that i still miss you. It's like so sensitive when people speak of your name. It's like way back into love. i still remember how your reaction are when being disturb, how you wanna cry when we talk about entering the army. i understand how painful it felt to have someone you love not by your side. For days, months,years. We never knew what might happen the next day. i guess i realize this too late. Being the way i was, i neglected you, left you to be alone for weeks. The suffering u endured i didn't appreciate it. I was used to your crying, but the heart cant get used to the pain it get whenever you cried. I might present myself to be someone who knows a lot about relationship. But in fact, i know nothing. I though i present myself well, yet, it was nothing but trouble. I can say i let you down too much for you to handle it. Your choice i accepted it and regretted. I don't know about whether it's too late. But i know that i still want to be the one you loved.
Leon-
