Hello.
My name is Leon.
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Monday, January 11, 2010
What does life seems to most people? Life is full of wonders. No one can expect what might happen next. Just like love. You will never expect yourself to fall for someone u don't know or just met. People said there are things as love at first sight. Some might say it's despo for love. Even there are reason like flirt. Yes, i fell for her at the 1st sight. People asked me who was prettier when i 1st entered my class. To me, she was the one that caught my eyes. She might not be the prettiest to others. To me, she was the best. i couldn't take my eyes off her. Taking every chance i had to peep at her back view. At that point of time, i wanted to get her number, to talk to her. Seeing her being close to one girl, i knew who can give me the information i wanted. So as time passes, i got hold of her number and started to text her. Her reply was always 1 word. it kinda make feel depress. But i still held hopes. Glad it paid off and finally it was not a 1 word reply anymore. So i confess to her one day. trying means to make me give up was her choice at first. until she started to develop feelings for me. thing was not smooth for us i would say, yet we manage to get over it. but, it was till i made the wrong decision. Neglecting her was the very big mistake i made. it made her think so much and cried so long. her cries pains me every time. yet i didn't do anything well to make her feel that she was save in my arms, that she can pour out everything on to me. i knew i failed, soon we went apart. anger was all i had, saying hurt full stuffs to her was what i did. When i knew my mistake, it was too late, she hated me. i know she does. Cause all she wanted was someone to depend on and to cry on. I gave her none. i made her feels that she cant depend on me, if she does that, she might fall into a deep hole. a hole that she cant get out. now, she treat me like the times when i was still wooing her, 1 word reply, yet it comes with thorns. i felt as though i was stabbed in the heart. each thorn pierces into it, leaving a pain and hatred feelings for me to feel. i wish i could have give her the needs she wants, so that she wouldn't be so disappointed in love. regrets was all i have. amendment cant be done nor said. tears are swallowed down in to the heart. i know nothing can be done yet i don't wish to give up. i just hope that she would be happy, and may she find a guy who she can cry and depend on. Love is a beautiful thing on earth. it can do wonders too. we dont expect ourselves to fall for people we knew for long. yet feelings are developed in such way too. knowing the good or bad point of one another, create a feeling for one, we cant control who to love and who not to love. the heart brings you to the person. my dear friends, it is a blessing to have one another, to remove each other just because love was created, is not a good choice. i hope, this love will never affect us. we are the best friends. you guys are like a puzzle pieces, without one of you, i cant be complete.
